i'm grieving, man. not depressed, but sad. i feel loss in a way that i did not anticipate and that i can't remember feeling before, although this isn't the first time i've ended a long-term relationship it's definitely the end of my longest and most intimate one. this sucks. i'm sure it will fade, i hope it fades, but right now it just sucks so much.
off to the gym, let's see how it goes.
EDIT:
WEIGHT: ???
SORENESS: none
ACHES/INJURIES: none
MENTAL STATE: unprecedentedly shitty, CNS dead
- warm up
tons of layups and drop steps as usual but i couldn't even do full-speed layups. so slow.
- squat 285 x 5,3,1,3,5
meh
- stretch
pretty much all i could muster tonight. no motivation at all.