re: getting up earlier, last night at 10:30 my gf was just like, let's go to bed. we're usually up much later. we didn't even go right to sleep, but turning the lights out that early just shifted everything. i woke up before 7, almost an hour before my alarm. lollygagged in bed for a while, but that is a good sign.
also motivation to train is starting to come back. been excited about trying some things today for the first time in a while. need to do a little something, at least, every day. every day. every day.
learning a pistol squat might be next. i can bang them out in squatting shoes but have never been able to do one barefoot on the flat ground. that's a good skill.