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made my season debut in the majors. went 1-4 in the game by beating out an infield hit to first, had a couple of put-outs from somewhere in the infield (SS?). very exciting. i'd played a few games here and there in the previous couple of seasons but mostly stuck around in the minors. after the game a veteran came over to me and was asking me about myself, saying i looked like i had the stuff to stay in the bigs if i kept working hard.

after the game a friend of my ex-gf and i was driving me home and we were talking about her. apparently she was looking to date a guy who was kind of the opposite of me, and the friend named a guy as an example who's kind of a loser. i was flabbergasted. we drove by my ex-gf's house and a big group of people were gathered there. my ex had cut her hair short and dyed it dirty-blond -- not a great look. she could barely make eye contact with me and greeted me with a kind of sullen "hi." i was sad, didn't understand why we couldn't have a more normal interaction. the people were eating papaya and i was offered some but declined so i could get out of there.

fin.

not difficult to see where the inspiration comes from, given that i was watching a major league ballgame last night in the town where my ex lives.

I had a dream that I was a navy seal lost in afghanistan with a machine gun and no communication.. horrible dream, death everywhere. fuck combat. everyone needs to relax.

i dreamt that as i was winding my watch, the knob kept coming out farther and farther, and the back of the watch started to come apart. not fall apart, but kind of expand and rearrange itself like a little transformer. then i couldn't figure out how to push it all back together.

Quote from: LBSS on November 11, 2015, 09:20:01 am

i dreamt that as i was winding my watch, the knob kept coming out farther and farther, and the back of the watch started to come apart. not fall apart, but kind of expand and rearrange itself like a little transformer. then i couldn't figure out how to push it all back together.

http://www.cbsnews.com/news/a-critical-time-for-watchmakers/

mechanical watches are so cool. i bought an automatic, self-winding watch last year. not a rolex or anything fancy like that but a real swiss watch that keeps the hands sweeping as long as it's on my wrist and moving around. love it. if i were rich i would totally get some boss watches.

OK so I had a bunch of horrid dreams lately due to my mental state... I've had a few nights in which I was awake pretty much all night/morning, with just a few short episodes of "sleep".

First dream:

I was in a supermarket, and then suddenly something happens and everybody is running like crazy. I'm like "why is everybody running" and I was starting to get scared, I knew something was happening. Then the walls started to close and iron walls started coming out of the ground like in a bunker, and I ran to jump over them and get out but couldn't. So the walls closed and there was a sound like "bam", like when you start very bright lights, then automatic machine-guns and a huge minigun came from the floor, upwards, with red laser pointers. They were programmed to kill anything that moves in the supermarket, instantly. They didn't move at all, just the lasers were moving, searching for stuff that moves.

So I was caught like in a 1/8 squat position with the knees slightly bent and my back against a wall, like in a sissy squat position. And for some reason, I "knew" that I'll have to wait 13 hours in that position and I was like "that's it, I'm dead, no way I can maintain this position for that long without moving".

And a second dream:

I was at my grandma's house and every clock in her house was moving ~3 times slower. So I was like "oh, so this is why she's been living for so long, there's a higher gravity field here so her age is an effect of General Relativity, now it makes sense".

I was in a bus going to some friends of my mom's from childhood, just me, my mom and the driver. I was sitting in the left row of the bus seating, my mom on the right.

The driver looked drunk, he used to go left and right on the road. He took a right turn, towards some hills that were out of nowhere there. He then got off the road, to the left of the road, and started going into an abyss. I looked at the window to my left, and it was that kind of "emergency escape" big window that you could break and jump out. I told my mom to wait for the perfect time to jump, before the bus would crash off the hill into the abyss, and hit the window with my elbow and jumped. I jumped to the left side of the bus (which was going left) and my mom jumped on the right side.

I rolled around in the snow for a bit and was perfectly fine. Landed next to a hole in the ground, where apparently the driver was rolled around in some white gluing tape, like scotch-tape, and you could only see his head. He was dead. The tape was some kind of spider net, a giant one.

My mom was nowhere to be found, but instead her liver fell into my arms (I can vividly remember this). Then her lungs were 50 cm or so next to her liver. Apparently, that's all that was left of her. I then thought "man this can't be true... how did this happen?!" and thought that maybe the bus went left and it went over my mom with the rear tires, since she jumped at the right side and rolled underneath it.

Then I woke up in terror.

last night, i dreamt I got another silky terrier puppy. Finally a great dream. We just sprinted down the street etc. ;f