I'm sorry to hear that your brother is going through this. My brother also had a very hard time with me when I was battling depression in the past. But even though I pushed him away and hurt him so many times he stuck with me and kept believing in me and it's probably thanks to him that I'm still here and alive today. I can't describe how much this means to me. I really hope that you hear from your brother soon and that things work themselves out somehow.
hey man thanks for these words, i really appreciate hearing them. i went through a period some years back where i was really angry with my brother and just suppressed my relationship with him. i'd still see him and stuff but i didn't really reach out. as time has gone by i've come to a greater understanding and while i still get angry with him when he fucks with our parents, i try very hard to communicate nothing but love to him. he showed up earlier today, i'm not sure where, but my mom called me and they were together. talked to him briefly, he was probably still high. he doesn't need me to tell him he fucked up, he knows it. he just needs to hear me say i love him anyway and that's it.
anyway, got back to work today and actually had a great workout. some of that "brother fucked with mom and dad again" anger maybe.
WEIGHT: 170.0 #athleticanorexia #probablyjustalittledehydrated
SORENESS: none
ACHES/INJURIES: right knee but got better as workout went on
MENTAL STATE: good, then angry, then good
- warm up
- skater jump x 10,10
- one-step RVJ x 3
PR tie on first and second jumps, roll tide
- DLRVJ x ~15
started out bad but i stuck with it, got angrier and angrier, ended up getting a bunch of clean dunks with the dodgeball (no one around to throw lobs) and then hit 36.5 without the ball. best jumps in a long time. lot of cursing involved.
- continuous backboard touches x 8,8
- squat 315 x 1; paused speed squat 275 x 5
manhandled the paused set, very strong
- DB push press 55s x 10,8
damn it
- kroc row 80 x 20R;18L
- TTB x 8,8
