Kind of lost my appetite last wk and today I was supposed to meet some friends for a buffet today and didn't go. Fuck that shit, I have an enormous appetite and I know what would happen and it's not good and I can't have that anymore.
I'm recognising that a few months ago when I did a good amount of dieting and was beginning to get real lean, I'd jeopardise it all by binging. I know that's just my body reacting to the hunger and stuff but I should know better. Of course that's no big deal in a normal diet but the thing is, when you've been dieting a while, those binges end up undoing weeks of work, you're just primed for fat gain, and it all goes right back. And it's so easy to justify it in the name of recovery ("i wanna get some PRs brb eating like a pig) but that's all bullshit. It makes no difference. To be fair I was healing from injuries so it was justified. But now i'm healed up I have to be careful not to spin my wheels.
So i'm eating small serves of food, even nutritious food, no point going overboard, Im having smaller portions and not going back for seconds. If I keep eating like this consistently, no takouts, eating clean, no seconds, i'll surely find my abs.
new soreness: hams, upper back, and the back of my arms (presses?).
more and more I think chrisbro's approach is sound. I have too many weaknesses. Could be abs, hams, quads, upper back, lower back, glutes, any of those. Not knowing which, just need to hammer them all hard.
I just finished ripping off all the duct tape of my barbell. I had accumulated a few layers on the center knurl cos that thing was razor sharp and bruised up my back bad. I've had a bandage on my back for the last month and a half, and I wear like 3 layers of fabric between the bar and my skin, and several layers of tape as well but it still bruised me up. So finally ripped off the tape and spend a good 2 minutes with sand paper. It's not sharp now but it's not smooth either. Hopefully that's enough otherwise i'll sand it down some more. Must say the bar feels much more comfy and secure without the tape, may even improve form.