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Quote from: maxent on July 16, 2018, 10:16:38 pm

Notes:
No caffeine today. Shud be interesting! Wasn't got a pretty good headache in the evening and it stayed until i fell asleep. Ate a package of cookies and some chocolate. Not proud of it but long story short, that girl i mentioned earlier, i managed to keep her interest for another week but yesterday night she texted to say take care. Have not dealt well with it, she was probably the one but i wasn't present and blew the chance.

damn that sucks.

dno about "the one" tho.

thanks bro. i think she was more 'the one' than any other girl before her, if that makes sense. She's 32 so she had no time to play games i guess and i was thinking of taking it slow but she's not willing to waste time on someone she might feel is not that serious. Grieving today.. watched my goto michael scott dealing with heartbreak in the Office which always cheers me up with how OTT he is about it all. And i shouldn't take life so seriously. But then the cold realisation sets in that i waited aimlessly for about 2 years since the last girl i was actually interested in marrying and it might be a long time til the next one comes. I just can't bring myself to invest emotionally in these things anymore .. i feel i self sabotage cos i have a protection mechanism that prevents me from falling and getting hurt etc

Quote from: adarqui on July 17, 2018, 10:02:20 pm

Quote from: maxent on July 16, 2018, 10:16:38 pm

Notes:
No caffeine today. Shud be interesting! Wasn't got a pretty good headache in the evening and it stayed until i fell asleep. Ate a package of cookies and some chocolate. Not proud of it but long story short, that girl i mentioned earlier, i managed to keep her interest for another week but yesterday night she texted to say take care. Have not dealt well with it, she was probably the one but i wasn't present and blew the chance.

damn that sucks.

dno about "the one" tho.

thanks bro. i think she was more 'the one' than any other girl before her, if that makes sense. She's 32 so she had no time to play games i guess and i was thinking of taking it slow but she's not willing to waste time on someone she might feel is not that serious. Grieving today.. watched my goto michael scott dealing with heartbreak in the Office which always cheers me up with how OTT he is about it all. And i shouldn't take life so seriously. But then the cold realisation sets in that i waited aimlessly for about 2 years since the last girl i was actually interested in marrying and it might be a long time til the next one comes.

ah damn.

I just can't bring myself to invest emotionally in these things anymore .. i feel i self sabotage cos i have a protection mechanism that prevents me from falling and getting hurt etc

know the feeling!

regardless, nothing wrong with any of that as long as you "learn from it". maybe at least think about what you would do/not do next time a similar situation comes around, just prepare a bit more for future scenarios (if they mean something to you, which it seems like they do).

pc!

AM temp/hr/bw: _/_/81.3
AM skinfold(mm): pec(7), sup(7), ab(11), sum(25)
Weight Vest: 6()
Supplement: 
Activity:
Misc: n/a
Diet Compliance: 2/2
Mobility: T
Skill work: T

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Rest day

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Training:

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Notes:
Back a bit sore. im not sold on paused squats for reps tbh.

Hey mate, have you ever run an oly program?

Quote from: Coges on July 22, 2018, 07:36:40 pm

Hey mate, have you ever run an oly program?

nope. that would be cool though. are you thinking about it?

Yep. I've started incorporating a little bit in and really enjoy it so want to do more.

I thought with your squat being what it is you could capitalise on that and get the side gains for vert as well. I remember gukl being surprised how high his vert was after not jumping for ages.

AM temp/hr/bw: _/_/82.3
AM skinfold(mm): pec(7), sup(7), ab(11), sum(25) (last updated on dexa day)
Weight Vest: 6()
Supplement: 
Activity:
Misc: n/a
Diet Compliance: 1/1
Mobility: T
Skill work: T

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Lower body volume day

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Training:
BS 6x120(p0), 1x135p, 5x115, 5x115, 5x112.5, 5x110, 5x107.5, 5x105, 5x105, 5x105, 5x105
Back Xtn 3x115(PR), 4x115(PR), 5x115(PR)

Notes:
Didn't wanna do upper volume after that exhausting squat sesh, maybe some other day.

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that is a lot of squats. how long did it take?

5 minute rests, took about 80 mins total.

btw just wanna point out i got my bloods back from last week (day after ending the cut) and apparently im still hypothyroid. so that sucks. it explains why i get so fat when i gain weight. also why cutting is harder for me than most ppl (but i just work harder i guess) .. shitty genes..

Quote from: maxent on July 23, 2018, 10:25:27 am

Quote from: LBSS on July 23, 2018, 08:15:22 am

that is a lot of squats. how long did it take?

5 minute rests, took about 80 mins total.

btw just wanna point out i got my bloods back from last week (day after ending the cut) and apparently im still hypothyroid. so that sucks. it explains why i get so fat when i gain weight. also why cutting is harder for me than most ppl (but i just work harder i guess) .. shitty genes..

what about hormone replacement?

doc still wants to monitor it ofr another couple of months. he's pretty conservative on treatment which i respect. but it's will be like 8 months since i first got the diagnosis so im getting a bit impatient but whatever..