BW: 89.7kg
Activity: ? (no fitness tracker)
Misc:
Diet Compliance: 6/6
Mobility:
Skill work:
Not enough sleep. Feel tired AF.
BSKB 4x150, 4x150, 4x150, 4x150, 3x150, 3x150
Notes:
One of those days where every rep was a fight. I just love making things as hard as possible for myself by dieting thru the week trying to get lean while hoping to PR volume at 150kg. Dickhead. Wanted 6 sets of 4x150kg. Managed 4, the 4th rep was super ugly.
The weaksauce guys lifting in the smith machine adjacent to me staring at me killed the vibe. I get self conscious and i cant focus on the lift and it throws off my form and then it's just messy and i lose the plot. I thought to approach them before the set and go hey sorry for being obnoxious but this is hard and i need to yell and grit, dont take offense. But actually talking to randoms at the gym is obnoxious enough because who does that? So you find them staring at the weird al quada training camp transplant straining away in their pretty little white gym and you know they're thinking wtf is this guy doing gtfo.
Need to start looking for a new gym for summer. I hate it so much when the atmosphere ruins the session b/c you need everything right to not die..But rant aside, i did okay, 22 reps is a PR at 150kg. Next time i'll get 24 fo sho.
note to self: if I ever need to defeat maxent in something, stare at him and he'll fold.
bro. they were probably mirin`. and even if they weren't, need to get that stuff out of your head. That kind of stuff is a huge component of this strength/power/athletic journey, not sure why everyone keeps forgetting that! Our minds look for ways out, to go back to being comfortable. Your whole perception of that situation could simply have been your subconscious finding a way to get you to quit or push yourself less. I'm not saying it's easy to overcome, but I am saying you need to recognize it when it happens, and try to actively defeat it, or it will defeat you - like it seemed to.
Based on what you typed, I would imagine you didn't try to battle those thoughts - you gave in to them, without even realizing you had a chance to battle, and you let them inhibit you.
Mental game PR's are harder to measure, but that seems like one you can work towards for sure.
Finally, you also bottled in your emotions because of those around you. That's fine to do, but expect performance to drop. So, if you are not OK with performance dropping, do not cage the animal. Again, you let (potentially, perhaps misperceived) other people's weakness, make you weak. Just think about that: you didn't yell/grunt/express your true emotion because of someone else's weakness -> it's like an X-Men weakness superpower they used on you, and you folded.
NO FILTER.
I'm optimistic that you will handle this differently in future sessions!
peace!!
