Getting impatient and demotivated. It took a long time and hard work to make 120kg a warmup weight on squats. Now it's back to being an impossible grind. And i don't see how to change that short of investing months of building up my squat. Wish there was a magic way to do it but there isn't, mediocre squatting is just the norm and takes a great deal of effort to overcome it.
i'm there with you right now. squatting 205 for sets of 6. sucks.
Oh that's not far from where I am. I use 90kg for sets across too haha. Last week I got up to 112.5x6 but that's a 6RM and i noped out of 115x6 at 3 reps the following workout. And what makes this so frustrating is my memory of the sensation of using weights under 120kg is still fresh in my mind and i remember how light they were then (i think i was using 120kg for 10 reps at the time and anything under that was ridiculously easy in comparison).
Well....depends...do you want to squat big or be athletic? Obviously a big squat relative to BW is beneficial but theres so many other ways to be athletic. Look at my numbers in the weight room, they're all down from PRs (some substantially) but my vert is at PR levels IMO. Im sure im not the only example, Kilganon comes to mind reallll fast.
i want to have a big squat and i want to be athletic. Both of those are equally important. I think if i was doing windmills i'd still want to have a decent squat. And if i had a decent squat i wouldn't be satisfied unless it led to PRs on the lifetime bball mix tape.
Ideally i'd have a strong squat and then i'd focus on becoming more athletic. Like turning my attention from one important goal to another.
But my confidence is gone now. I no longer believe i have it in me to be athletic. Im just not wired that way, i haven't got the right stuff physically or mentally to be a good athlete and i was a fool to think i could train myself to becoming athletic. There is a reason why when i played cricket and faced the averge bowler my CNS was always a step too slow to hit the ball before it went by lol. And on the basketball court it's harder to tell when you're unathletic but watching tape can show you gaps in athleticism easily enuf.
Sad thing is i have to admit to myself my best days as an athlete are behind me. i peaked too late in my life but i peaked all the same even in my late 20s and what i achieved only a year or two ago is the best i'm ever going to manage.. and there isnt room there for windmills or big monster jams with two hands off the dribble in a game
i still think i can improve myself through training but goals are changing now .. no longer so lofty and ambitious .. i would settle for repping 120-130kg on squats while weighing 70kg and jumping 33" or whatever i was at earlier in this log.. well. we'll see..