before i took that year off, i pretty much 'ran out of anger'.. anger always fueled my training.
i think i'm refueled and ready to go.
i think the 'anger' ties in with some form of 'depression'.. ive always had this though.. i seem to respond by finding ways to take out my aggression, usually through training, sport (basketball/boxing) etc.. that's probably better than just giving in and doing nothing.
kind of interesting though when i think about it.. some form of 'anger' is directly proportional to my training intensity..
during my 2 year dunk stint, it was 'depression/anger' over my grandpa's situation.. so when he died, regarding training, i had a void.. i couldn't summon any kind of intensity whatsoever.
ok so that year is over and im fucking pissed again.
leggo.
9/23/2012
BW = 163
SORENESS = quads bigtime, hamstrings/adductors
FATIGUE = INSANE: havn't felt this weak in a long time
crazy fatigue.. don't care what it's from, all i care about is not 'fighting it' like i used too.. when i feel like this from now on, it's time to focus on weaknesses or just completely relax.
planned on squatting but just too sore/drained.. will make up for it tomorrow most likely.
i'm re-evaluating everything.. i'm going to approach training completely different this time around.. all of that work i put in over the years definitely caused some permanent strength/conditioning/performance gains.. i need to focus more on recovering fully, neglected muscle groups/'activation', and keeping my workload down.
im going to spend MUCH MORE TIME doing activation/isolation neuromuscular exercises..SESSION: NO WEIGHTS
- lots of seated TKE holds/reps
- lots of standing adductor/abductor exercises
- lots of standing glute/ham exercises, also bent over 45-deg glute/ham exercises
an example would be tke x 50-100 reps, standing 45 deg single leg hip extension x 50 etc.
that stuff was really good/fun and enjoyable.. there's something about isolation + unilateral exercises which make me feel good.. of course the intensity is low, but, its nice to just activate a muscle group and feel fatigue without their being any kind of real intensity/stress.
going to focus ALOT on this stuff..
also the 'balance' component is kind of fun too.. picture prone glute type stuff, but standing or bent 45 degree, not holding onto anything.
ok i typed alot..
sleep
peace
hah..