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Progress Journals & Experimental Routines / Re: Scooby 2011 Journal
« on: December 10, 2020, 08:56:56 am »
happy belated birthday scooby! pretty amazing to still be getting up like that as an old geezer!

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- run 53:39, 10.79 km
colder but not windy. my old kinvara 10s are starting to tear, need a new pair of shoes. guess i'm gonna bite the bullet and try the new endorphin speeds. will be interesting to see how i feel with an 8mm drop.

- stretch

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Progress Journals & Experimental Routines / Re: Age vs Vertical
« on: December 09, 2020, 11:46:51 am »
 :highfive:

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- run 52:30, 10.35 km
pretty chilly (low 40s) and breezy but weirdly my hands and wrists didn't get as cold as on the previous few runs.

- stretch

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800m+ Running and/or Conditioning / Re: The Misc Running News Thread
« on: December 07, 2020, 11:14:28 am »
it's the shoes. like when swimmers started using those sharkfin bodysuits in the early 2000s and every swimming WR went down in short order.

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i dunno about that, vag, i feel like self-indulgence or hedonism are separate, for me anyway. for me it really is about ego defense, closer to what coges talked about, although again there i don't feel like it's linked to fear that other people will laugh at me or think less of me or whatever. it's more like i've got an idea in my head of what i could do if i really tried hard and i don't want to find out if it's true or if i'm not as talented as i thought it was. that's why dunking was a perfect test case: the motivation was completely internal, no one else gave a shit whether i got there or not.

in any case that fear has lessened as i've gotten older, it's something i've come to terms with.

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I a also agree with Andrew's approach.  And i mean i agree 100% , i couldn't have written it better, or even that good, trying to express my own POV on this.
Just 2 quick notes : 1) it is a matter of personality too. This approach suits me perfectly but im a big time procrastinator. 2) In that approach, there will always be a lot of "what if?"s. Even when you achieve targets, you always wonder what u could reach if fully committed. You gotta be able to live with that.

i think i've written about this before on here but if so it was years ago, so: this is the reason i started down the dunking path in the first place 10+ years ago. got to the end of college realizing that i'd never really gone balls-out at a really difficult goal. i got a BA and went to the junior olympics and got a job, had friends, had had girlfriends, but basically by coasting on my privileges and whatever natural gifts i have. i'd never really committed to ultimate, so i wasn't that great at it. my family couldn't afford for me to really commit to fencing, so i topped out by going 1-4 and finishing ~160th out of ~200 at the JOs. i was a B or B+ student in high school because my work ethic was, shall we say, average. but i did some neat extracurriculars and crushed the SAT (a garbage test designed to reward people like me) so got into a good university.

one of my good friends in college was a straight-A student who worked relentlessly hard. she applied herself diligently to school and also got involved in some organizing stuff. at some point in college, comparing myself to her, i self-diagnosed as a coward. i started to understand not working hard is a defense mechanism: if i can do well enough at X or Y without pouring myself into it, well, i'm sure i could have aced it like those other people if i'd just worked harder. or if i do badly at it, then i could have done well enough if i'd tried. dunking was a goal that i knew i would have to work very hard and very doggedly at if i had any hope of reaching it. in other words, i'd have to fully commit. i suppose it helped that it had no extrinsic value.

in retrospect, i think "cowardice" is probably too harsh or too judgmental a word. and the fact of the matter is, if my parents could have paid for more coaching, i doubt i'd have reached the elite tier anyway. i'm just not that athletic. if i'd studied harder in high school or college, what benefit would have accrued to me that i didn't get from my B+ GPA? i might have become a marginal elite ultimate player, actually, because the pool is still relatively small and if you've got great skills you can overcome a lack of speed. but i'd never have been a star.

the thing is, i'm a basically happy person. part of me wishes i was more crazily committed to a particular goal, there's something romantic and amazing about people who just go for it 100%. but i'm just not. and i'm not sure i'd trade my general contentment for the drive to be exceptionally great at something.

point being, i'm learning to live with the "what ifs." playing guitar is a case in point: i'm a true beginner in my mid-30s, and wouldn't it be nice if i'd started 20 years ago? but i didn't, and it's okay. similar with running. wouldn't it be nice if i didn't have so many other interests, or if i were naturally faster, or if i weren't so injury prone, or if i were willing to sacrifice more to keep to a strict schedule? well, no (except the injury part), and in any case it's a moot point. i am who i am. the dunk journey did teach me to be more disciplined and more dogged, and it inspired in me the desire to be really fit. but it didn't fundamentally change my personality.

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^^^ no doubt.

- run 1:36:02, 17.37 km
cold (low 40s) but sunny and beautiful. went with dad on bike, had nice conversation.

- stretch

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- warm up; 800s x 2.5 (3:03, 3:02, xxx); cool down
very windy, lungs felt filled up and i was slowing down substantially on the third rep. just felt off. bailed.

- stretch

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^^^ A+ advice thanks adarq.

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Mate I feel your pain. In the past I have always filled my plate too full and as a consequence I don't get the best out of anything. I also often found that I would detour from something just when I needed to double down and get a breakthrough. My 2c is to suck it up, recommit and go for the 18:xx.

yeah it happened when i was working on dunking, too. i'd be like, i know what i need to do! sprint more! and then waste a year on that shit. i'm slow as dirt and sprinting is hard on your body, what was i thinking?

alright that's one vote for 18:xx.

I've noticed you seem to have headaches quite frequently. Have you always had these or have they just started occurring recently?

it's a lifelong thing. they tend to come in waves, like i'll go months without a bad one and then get a bunch in a short period of time.

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i've been feeling discouraged about training. i set ambitious goals but life gets in the way (or rather, i let life get in the way) and then get down on myself for not meeting them. the week before thanksgiving was a great training week: did every workout, total mileage >60km, felt amazing. then my brother and his gf came to town, and there was the holiday, and i went to baltimore for the day on saturday to spend time with them rather than training, and i only ran ~40-45 km. this past week i had a two-day headache and so missed two days of training, and my weekly mileage isn't going to cross 35 km. and so yesterday it was hard to get out the door for what, per my plan, should have been an hour-long run. i warmed up after a while and it was fine, but for the first 3 km or so my body wanted to turn around and go home. not a good sign.

at the same time, i've started to get more and more into guitar. and i have some ambitions about outside-of-work professional growth that will take time to follow through on. given that there are limited hours in the day, maybe it's time to just back off on training with an ambitious goal like 18:xx 5k, at least for a little while. it might be better to switch to a kind of GPP holding pattern for a while, join the Y and go lift weights with my dad in the mornings 2-3 days per week and run 3 days per week but holding myself to a more limited target. it'd help to switch working out to the mornings, especially in anticipation of starting to work again.

something like this but without getting stressed if i miss a day or have to switch things around because you have to book slots at the Y because they only let in a couple of people at a time:

monday AM: work out at Y
tuesday AM: run 10+ km at "natural" pace (i.e. not trying to run slow)
wednesday AM: run 10+ km
thursday AM: work out at Y
friday AM: rest
saturday: run or work out or some other physical activity (tennis?)
sunday: long run

or maybe i should just suck it up and keep gunning for 18:xx, recommit myself to my plan and really try to switch to the mornings. there's nothing stopping me from doing that except my own sloppiness around going to bed.

i dunno, just musing.

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- run 47:58, 9.76 km
kept it short. more later on why.

- stretch

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i dunno, i think i'd give t0ddday a run for his money on adarq.org meetups. pretty sure i'm on five.

no workout yesterday, i had a headache all day that only went away around 11:30 this morning. gonna fall below my mileage/time target for the second week in a row. this will be a year of falling short, i'm afraid.

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- run 1:36, 16.47 km
mom biked alongside, mainly kept to rock creek park. we had to walk right after the turnaround point because she couldn't make it up the very steep hill right there. very lovely, nice and relaxed (5:50 average pace), shorter than sundays should be but it's okay.

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