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Quote from: Mutumbo000 on October 18, 2017, 06:34:31 am

Bench-
barx12
60x12
80x6
100x4x3 Back up to benching 2 plates again for reps 

Chin Ups (8kg attached)
7x3

Pull Ups
8

Track-
Need to stop being soo fkn lazy and get out and put in some fitness.

maybe do some really early morning workouts on the track? just nice and light tempo sprints, while the sun is coming up? Just wakeup early, get some fluids in, get out there, and enjoy the fresh air. there is just something about being out there so early as the current section of "earth" is "booting up".

to me, there's something very powerful in that setting.. feels very "clean" and "pure". LBSS kind of mentioned something about that too recently in his journal. I think just beyond the symbolism of it, there's also the (circadian) rhythm / human evolution side of it.

dno just a thought!

fwiw, training as the sun is setting feels great also.. those two opposite ends of the spectrum feel amazing to me.

peace!

Quote from: Mutumbo000 on October 17, 2017, 06:09:51 am

Yeah I want to but I'm mentally weak I've got an alcohol dependence. I haven't gone a week without drinking since 2013 and usually I drink multiple times a week and when I drink I binge drink until I'm out cold. I recognise that I have a problem. My whole family is a bunch of alcoholics. There's a photo that I have seen before that goes along the lines of two brothers who had an alcoholic father. The first son says "I drink because it's what my father did" and the other son says "I don't drink because I watched my father drink". I need to be the 2nd son but atm I'm just like my father but nowhere near as bad.

It has been better since I started playing sports and training again. It's given me the motivation to keep fit and have positive influences in my life and goals. However, since the season has finished I've just gone off the rails again and the whole Grand Final boycott and facing the possibility of being unable to play at all next year has been a catalyst to getting back on the piss. I don't want to be like this, which is why I'm reaching out and writing on my journal. It's easy just not to say anything and pretend everything is sweet but deep down I have an issue. I hate the days where I wake up thinking about alcohol because I tell myself that I'm not going to drink but it's like whatever I tell myself or say that I'm not going to do I end up doing it. I've just got a fucked up mind sometimes but I'm lucky I have a supportive partner. I don't know how she puts up with me sometimes but I"m grateful that she does.

first of all, props for putting this out there. it's not an easy thing to do, even in writing.

second of all, about that bolded part: those things don't necessarily go together. "mental weakness" is a slippery term -- like "stupid" or "smart" it doesn't actually tell you much. but even taking it at face value, it doesn't apply to addiction, which is a mental illness every bit as much as depression or schizophrenia. we are really only starting to understand it. telling yourself the reason you can't kick booze is because of your own mental weakness is wrong and probably counterproductive.

is there an addiction counseling center nearby you could visit? or an AA meeting? AA has mixed results for the addicts i know, but for some people it's a complete life-changer. it's worth going if you haven't before, and even if you have.