When I mentioned April being an especially bad month, it was because things were finally coming to an end with my mom. Her battle with CLL (Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia), which began in 2009, finally came to an end in 2017. I made a post about her on FB, so i'll keep this very short & take a different angle.
The Instagram Angle:
One reason I joined IG to begin with, was to post various photos of nature, the sky, our (my mom & I) dogs, food, and just a few running related pictures. Most of these pictures were for her. She could barely leave the house, could no longer see sunsets or go for walks with me & the dogs, could no longer go in the back yard and throw dog toys, could no longer eat as healthy as she wanted (salads, fruit -> risks & taste buds dying), and just couldn't be herself & enjoy life like she wanted too. So I often showed her photos that I took specifically for her & posted to my IG. I mean, my IG is a bit different than the rest of my online presence, in that it's just so much happier, bright, and hopeful, because I wanted her to still experience some of those things. For example, she absolutely loved it when I came back home from a dog walk, and showed her tons of photos of the sunset/sky. Many of those photos, I actually showed her when she was in the hospital; she was a regular.
So, that has nothing to do with IG but, it was just one of the mediums I used to post photos, many of which were intended for her. She actually liked this medium alot because there's just lots of beautiful photos, she just wanted to see positivity.
She also knew about many of my friends on this forum & elsewhere, you'd be surprised how much she knew & how much I shared with her.
Anyway, here's just a small collage of photos of her:
This was her favorite flower. She didn't get to see it bloom recently, though she saw it bloom for several years. It was given to her by one of her best friends. I posted it a few weeks ago so she could see it, while she was doing really bad in the hospital. One of her final requests, was to have her ashes spread in it's soil:
I'll probably be posting a bunch of other stuff throughout the weeks on IG or FB, just to get it out into the ether and such.
I really thank everyone for their hard work, passion, and enthusiasm on this forum over the many years. My mom especially loved it, she'd always ask me how it was going, how specific people were doing, and was amazed that people were still chatting it up when I disappeared for so long. She thought that was really special.
<3
peace