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^true, but they werent short sprints (~100-150m) however if i did short sprints (say <50m) with recovery, i would def have some even more pronounced and crippling quad doms .. i know that with probability 1! To be honest i wouldnt call these sprints .. i was soo out of if that day, i could barely call it a sprint .. esp after the first rep, 20s isn't quite enough recovery. felt too slow/unaccalerated  to call it anything like a sprint.  But i'm still interested in hearing the explanation.

2 more weeks of scheduled dietng left. Feeling pessimistic bout reachign my goal weight of <75kg/165b by then .. but we'll see, may have an overnight whoosh at some point and bring me close. Honestly i dont get it, im looking a lot leaner in the mirror but the scale hasnt registered the losses so maybe something funny going on .. anyways, lets just see out the next 14 day and then I can revisit body comp. I know i improve my bodycomp by doing more cardio .. but not until im done dieting.

The HIIT sprints i did on monday made my quads sore (as expected) but it didn't seem to affect my squatting too badly so that's promising. And i'd be crazy to attribute it to just one workout -- but my love handles have melted appreciably the last coupla days.. so maybe it's already doing good things for bodycomp!

In other news, I only have 5 weeks left til the bball comp!!! yikes it's crept up. Not sure if i'll be ready .. i havetn played a full court bball game since dec :/ but im hoping to be in the best shape of my life by mid-to-late march.

The question is, can i get a 150kg raw backsquat at 75kg bw before the comp?? And peak my vertical and conditioning?! Even getting one of those would be amazing but all 3 seems quite unlikely. Maybe if i had 12 weeks but 5 is not enough. It doesn't seem like there is enough time esp since i'm cutting and it will take time to get on a roll once i'm done (if i'm done at some point ..).

I feel like going off the caloric deficit will give me some strength gains. Stopping the stupid fasting thing will give me some gains. Maybe i can just go balls to teh wall and get some more gainz. also maybe the hip thrusts and rdls will help indirectly too? will all of that be enough to finally reach the 2xbw BS? Idk. First things first, need to rep 140kg for a double and im no where near that at the mo.

I mean if i had access to a Tarp bar i might even entertain using one but since I dont and i'd have to go out of my way to find one, it's really not worth talking about lol. I have used one in the past and i had issues with setting up with a flat back. It's not really the lift for me tbh, the rom isn't enough .. but i do appreciate the suggestions.

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Thanks guys. I will try the suggestions but i'm not too optimistic. Can't do FS even when i was healthy without bothering my back.. chances are they're def out when injured. Trap bar never really appealed to me. I dont know how to use it properly without rounding my back. Not keen to revisit. BSS is not much different from BS in terms of disturbing the spine but the load is lighter so it may work better.. Will see how it goes.

I like the suggestion of the heavy sled pushing.. only prob is i dont have that piece of equipment.. though i could push a car or something? haha.

Man those HTs really wrecked my .. hips.. is that just from the bar pushing on my hips or is it a muscular thing. idk.

Still lifting every day. Still semi depressed but i think its getting better. No clue what she wants anymore, hell, she doesnt even know. So ive decided to start moving on. I wont wait on someone who, even though i love her, doesn't know what she wants and wont try to make me a priority  even though she 'cant imagine me not being in her life'.

Unfortunately men may never recover fully from a breakup. The thing which confounds it in your case is she will drift in and out of your life on a whim, disrupting any healing process that you may have initiated and you have to start over before you've pulled yourself out fully out of the well of despair. The first step is recognising that you're never really truly going to give up on this woman/relationship because you have so much invested in it and as a man it's impossible to give up on the one true love - or what you think is the person capable of being it (but hasn't been that way).

The only advice I can give is to take a step a back and read some stuff, eg Avoidant: How to Love (or Leave) a Dismissive Partner and Attached: The New Science of Adult Attachment and How It Can Help YouFind - and Keep - Love.  These books will help you realise that sometimes the person you want is fundamentally incompatible with your needs or vice versa .. even though you've got a great deal of attraction and affection for her, it just doesn't make for a healthy relationship for reasons that are not in your or her control.

No. I did JS on weds, lifting fine (PR) on friday including squats and RDLs. Hurt my back saturday jumping. When i jump to touch the bar on the roof it forces me land akwardly (I think on my heels instead of forefoot). It's definitely the dumb jumps. The heavy JS are safe, i dont get high enough to land on my heels. With lighter ones the landing is more risky.