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« on: June 19, 2024, 05:01:01 pm »
wife's ACL is torn. i took her to get an MRI yesterday and the doc followed up today to confirm it. looks like she will be able to have surgery next week. she is understandably devastated: exercise in general and running in particular are very important to her and she suffers when she has to sit still. she sobbed when she got the news, and tbh i cried, too, right then and also later, by myself. it absolutely sucks, and the timing could almost not be worse. we're moving on saturday, we're trying to have a baby, we're supposed to go visit her family in south dakota for july 4th... fuck.
part of what sucks - a small part, relative to her being badly hurt and grieving - is losing, even if temporarily, my training buddy! getting excited about running, climbing, mountaineering, all of that stuff is out the window for now because even though i can still do them, i don't want to do them as much without her. it's a source of joy and intimacy for us. and i can't be sharing progress or making plans or anything because it'll make her feel bad. got to figure out what to do about that.