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thanks acole, i appreciate it.

studies disrupted in that i was supposed to be in indonesia this month to do some action research about housing rights, and that's obviously been cancelled and replaced by a jerry-rigged substitute activity. but otherwise class was pretty much over before the lockdown started, i only had to do a little over a week of classes remotely. all that's left are a couple of short assignments due in early june and then my dissertation due in september, which is obviously a solo effort. would have been nice to be able to get around for changes of scenery while i work on it but functionally it doesn't matter much to be doing it from home.

tbh the main thing this changes for me work-wise is that i'll be looking for jobs in DC rather than london, and won't have to worry about getting my work approval status changed.

Sorry to hear. One of the big 'jokes' here is that post-covid we will have a divorce pandemic.
Give yourself a few days to relax, for thoughts to settle, for intense emotions to weaken, for blood to cool. Then re-think everything. The more time passes, the more logic takes over.
I understand it is highly awkward doing all that while living together, if you can somehow detach yourself from being in there, travel elsewhere with your mind, maybe it would help.
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this is extremely sage advice. thanks vag.

gf and i broke up. not sure what i'm gonna do about staying in london. obviously we'll have to move out of our place -- her first, since she has family to stay with -- but there's so much interesting work here, i was kind of looking forward to figuring out what to do next. on the other hand, the prospect of being totally alone in this apartment is pretty terrible. and paying london rent, trying to make london work for myself as a single person, with this goddamn pandemic on...i don't know. fucking covid. my impulse is to head back to my parents' place ASAP, but i don't have to decide anything right this second.

for the immediate term, we're stuck together. very uncomfortable situation.

deep breaths.

^^^ i'm beginning to wonder if he's paying y'all to advertise to the very, very tiny market on here 

yesterday

- run 9.15 km in 49:12
first 3 km and last 1 km with gf (last 1 km partly walked). middle 5 km pace was 4:45, but obviously overall very slow.

- stretch

today

- run 8.76 km in 43:04
legs a bit tired (which makes sense) but lungs felt good. seven-day total 59.7 km because of two three-day stretches as i get back on schedule. on track for ~48 km this calendar week and then from next week i'll settle right around 50+.

- stretch

- run 10.13 km in 49:01
somehow wind was in my face for the first 4 km and the last 4 km, despite them being in almost opposite directions. lol.

- stretch

FWIW i am working toward this (see my signature):

sunday: long and slow
monday: rest
tuesday: medium
wednesday: medium
thursday: medium
friday: rest
saturday: speed/tempo

if you can do a six-day rotation and keep track of it, go for it. but i've always found rotations based on anything other than a calendar week are impossible to stay on top of for very long.