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03/04/2017- 6pm
bw- 91

Warm Up- skipping, scap & shoulders, wrists

Pull ups- bw x 4, 4, 4,
Ring dips- bw x 3, 3, 3

Banded monster walks (loving these before squats and they make a massive difference)

Front Squat- bar x 10, 40 x 5, 60 x 3, 80 x 1, 90 x 7
Feet supported l-sit x 20s x 4

Giving handstands the flick for the rest of the week till I get some consistency back. Elbow is feeling a lot better but need to get more work into it and the surrounding areas.
Squats were solid. Had the knee sleeves on and feel that I would have had 10 reps with better bar positioning. My right elbow was dropping and the wrist and fingers were taking up too much slack. Legs felt great though.
Bodyweight is surprisingly at 91 given my last few weeks of sporadic training and going off the reservation with my eating. Looking forward to getting it back down into the high 80's.

For me early bedtime seems to be the hardest thing to do consistently and it has the widest effect on the rest of the stuff I want to do.

^^^ says video is unavailable

Not sure if this has been posted elsewhere but it's just horrible

<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2tKSzL_6qdw" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2tKSzL_6qdw</a>

I'm experiencing the same thing. Left wrist is a bit buggy and right elbow has just given me the finger. Funny that it's not taking me as long as expected to get some results so I think you might surprise yourself.

So much for consistency. Spent all day driving around for meetings and my right elbow was killing me when I got home. It's been tender on and off the last month or so but nothing out of the ordinary. I think it's related to my lat/shoulder tightness so spend a decent amount of time working through those areas. Also spent some time stretching my forearms as they were super tight. Skipped my session this morning to rest and will pick back up for my 3rd session later this week.

I played a game where I was the best player on the court and I only scored 2 points. Im not sure what the fuck is wrong with me but im a terrible basketball player. I passed up shots to hit team mates with assists which went begging. Like imagine if Lebron played with some scrubs and was finding the open man who couldnt hold the ball, except im not lebron by any means. So bad.

Don't stress about it mate. You play that way by habit. I do the same.

Mate thanks for using me as an example of someone you think is lean. I currently weigh between 89 and 90 and estimate myself between 13-15% bf on any given day. The way I look varies that much it’s not funny. 7-8 years ago I was 75g dripping wet. Little to no muscle tone and was repeatedly told I was skinny but I felt fat. I had no bulk at all in the upper body.  I got my bodyfat done twice and was sub 12% both times but looked like I was in the 18-20% range. I’m carrying more fat now but far more muscle too and the difference is night and day. Sometimes we are our own worst enemy eh.

Btw, you are not a unique snowflake. You are not the only one who has ever had issues trying to lose fat and gain muscle from a disadvantaged starting point. It’s comforting to think you’re all alone and the world doesn’t know what you’re going through cause it gives you an out. The real story is you have body dysmorphia and a bad relationship with food.

Look at your IG post from October 2016 when you dunked shirtless post game. You are not cut but you are certainly not fat. I would say you look athletic and wiry and in the 15-16% range. You weighed 81.8kg and had just squatted 8 sets of 2 @ 140kg for a raw, beltless 1.7xbw squat. That same day, and I quote, you said “i dont really think i shud be using 80kg as the bodyweight -- 85kg makes more sense as my ideal bodyweight, where im maximally strong AND athletic..” 3 days later you go low carb and state you’re trying to get under 81 and recomp to 80. Some days I look in the mirror and think I’m a fat fuck and other days I look ripped. I then tell myself to shut the fuck up and get on with my day. Makes life so much easier.

As Acole said, everyone here wants to see you succeed which is why we keep posting shit in your forum and trying to get through to you. Take what you will from all these posts but one thing is clear and that is you need some change. What’s the worst that can happen?