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Yeah lol sucks, im down 1.5 inches on my chest and 1 to 1.5 inches on my gut though.

Not sure how much more ill eat today, probably should get something to help recovery,  thats just my own broscience.  Idk if itll actually help.

Measurements dont mean shit today.  From what i tasted i threw up everything after my pre-workout peanuts.

Im guessing its the turkey sausage, will throw them out.

Hard to call it a breakup because we weren't really dating but the chick I've been seeing broke things off last night because, long story short, she's not over her ex. That's probably good in the long run, but at the moment it sucks.

1. being rejected is shitty
2. being rejected in favor of another dude she also rejected but still has feelings for is shittier
3. being rejected after making it clear that the only red line was that she be working on getting over the other dude, her agreeing to that, then getting all weird a few days ago and lying about why even when i asked point-blank about it, sleeping with her a couple of times but not having sex because of said weirdness -- is even shittier

Texted with my friend about it this morning (her night, she's in DC), and she pointed out that it's not personal, for her (the girl here) it's about herself and her feelings for this other guy and the fact that she likes me -- which she does -- is in the background. Also that if the girl is dealing with internal shit then it's way better to have a clean break than be ambiguous about shit. That's true, but still feeling hurt/pissed.

I'll get over it, just feeling a little bit emo today.

ETA: After cooling down a bit, and FB messaging with the chick, I had an epiphany. Namely, that I have been taking our relationship way too seriously. She's leaving the country for good in May, it's not like we have a future together. And she's cool and hot and fun in bed and she likes me and wants to have sex with me, too. Would be dumb to throw the baby out with the bathwater. Sure, it would be weird if she invites her ex to Pakistan for a week or goes back to Bahrain to sleep with him for a week. But if I'm also not monogamous with her then it'd be less weird. Letting my internal expectations/status-meter get way ahead of where we decided to be at -- and we'd talked about it several times -- was not good. Didn't quite realize how far ahead I'd gotten until she hit me with the "I'm not ready to be done romantically with ex" yesterday.

Still need a bit of time to get over the shock of having my quasi-unacknowledged feelings scrambled. Not gonna rush back into bed with her, even though she expressly told me her door's open. But I think getting over it can, if I want it to, mean that we're FWB. I think that'd be cool.

Id go for it, its rare to find a girl that is fine with hooking up without hidden motives.

Yesterday I ate baked ziti with 2 big garlic knots and protein shake #fatfuck
Today I ate 1 hashbrown and 4 pieces of bacon pre-workout #fatfuck

Workout
1. Supa Set
cable flyes
push ups
4x10
2. Supa Set
Cable lateral raise
db side raise
3x10
3. Cable rear delts
3x10
4. SUpa Set
Tricep push downs
Tricep rope
3x10
5. Incline db press
60x3x10
Machine work
chest, shoulder, lat pulldowns, seated row

going to hit hammys and biceps tomorrow after xfit workout

weight for being a fat fuck
279.9
yah down 8.5lbs, earlier in the week i was 283 or something, ill have to go back and look.

I got the approval from my supervisor who was in favor of it and our contact at the plant for me to go back to MMA.  They said its perfectly fine even if im full of black eyes lol  So once winter is over I will be looking at a few gyms in the area and get back to the octagon...well i mean not the ufc but I want to fight amateur.

So this morning, long story short, pulled outta work and almost got t boned by a cop, there was a truck parked on the side of the road blocking the field of view for oncoming traffic so i said jesus take the wheel and well close call.  Killed my mood for the gym and said fuck it, had 2 slices of bfast pizza lmao fuck fuck so i ate 1 other meal and not my last one to conserve calories at least.  I have 1 meal, protein shake and sub today to last until 3, once i am home just gonna sleep until 9 and cook food for work at 11.  Depending on how tired I am I will hit the gym, if not then i will just do saturday and sunday.

in my defense i obviously couldnt see oncoming traffic and it was in the morning where its not dark but not light and the sheriff didnt have his headlights on.

Jackie: 9:35
4min km
Thrusters, broke them up too much, piss poor flexibility
Fat mans: 3x10

Karen
9:35 to 21:35

10s at first and ended with 15s and 25s.

My cardio recovered towards the end but my lower back and legs were shot.

Pathetic but feels good to be moving.  Legs are supa pumped.

Ima walk it off, eat my meal and get some sleep.

Back to 283.6, highest when i started was 288.

injury life.




01/30/2017

Bio: Morning

last night's sleep: 7 hours
last night fell asleep: 5 AM
wakeup = 12 PM
bw = 155 lb.
- 
morning resting heart rate = didn't measure
soreness = none
aches = left knee slightly (patella)
injuries = abrasions where my shorts sit - from friction (mostly left hip and lower back), left shoulder barely, back of right knee slightly
quad stretches throughout the day = none
standing desk (when on computer): no
feel = ok
water = alot
mosquito bites: 0



Potential Races

- 02/05/2017: 7 AM: Butterfly Run 5k
- 02/19/2017: 6 AM: Publix A1A Half Marathon: http://a1amarathon.com/event-details/a1a-half-marathon/
-- http://a1amarathon.com/event-details/results/
- 03/25/2016: 6 AM: Coral Springs Half Marathon: http://www.halfmarathons.net/florida-race-for-womens-wellness-half-marathon-5k/
-- would need to run ~6:30 min/mi to be top 3.


Protocols:

- Kipsang Fartlek: 20 x (1-min on, 1-min off), 20 x (30s on, 30s off)
- half surface: run N miles hard on X surface (asphalt), run N miles light on Y surface (turf/grass)



Food

12:30 PM

- cereal + 2% milk
- green tea
- banana



Food

4 PM
- pei wei

- sesame chicken
- green tea



Session: Evening

5 PM

- lots of pullups/chinups/neutral grip pullups
- lots of dip variations
- 4 x 100 calf raises

decent light w/o



Food

8 PM

- brie + crackers
- water w/ lemon



Food

10 PM

- protein fruit smoothie



Food

4:30 AM

- cereal + 2% milk
- banana



iced my left knee a bunch.

What do you use for the protein fruit smoothie?  I used to get them at my old gym but havent had one in forever. 

oh word, must have missed that. makes sense, those interfaces are annoying.

Yeah they are and not your fault, i deleted the post where i explained it.  It had my foods without eggs so i just deleted it and made a new one.

Fats are supposed to be significantly higher but i cant do that unless i jack my calories up.  2000 seemed to work good last time so after the 4th wk if im still dropping 3lbs or so then i will increase my calories accordingly to slow it down with more fats.
 No workout today, did it yesterday
Tuesday: two wods i mentioned before
Wednesday: normal
Thursday: nothing, im working wed night at 10pm to thursday afternoon at 3pm.
Friday: xfit twerkout cleans and push ups
Saturday: normal
Sunday: bike

Sucks that i bought the subie for winter cuz i got my taxes back and its just going to go towards paying it off.  I would have bought a stairmaster but oh well, we had some god awful days so far where the AWD W/studded tires worked flawlessly. Tonight at work im going to actually separate my meals to figure out when and how much ill be eating for each meal. 

I can still look up on craigslist for steppers, it should still fit in the subie.