Reading adarq's journal got me internalising motivation so I thought I'd just blog it down here rather than hijacking his journal. Anyway
100% agree with the motivation factor. I've been slacking with it as well. Sometimes I'll go through phases of being motivated and wanting to put in effort but than there'll be other times where I just think realistic/negatively and wonder what I'm trying to do or achieve!? I love sprinting but the injuries were just killing me and it's such a solitary sport, let alone when you're not at an elite level with any training partners. Obviously with sprinting there's no subjectivity it's just you against the clock, although there's never the perfect race. I was just in such a rut and constantly overweight/injured that I couldn't do anything. I pretty much pissed away 2014/2015/2016, which were prime years of athletic life.
Personally I have found getting back into rugby league has been good for me this year. At least with rugby league even if I'm doing nothing extra I'm committed to training a couple times each week with my team mates and going out and playing a game on the weekends. But then even now I'm still not committed to dieting, I still overindulge with alcohol, and I've got pissweak motivation for going to the gym. However, what is there to push me? What am I trying to achieve? I don't know. All I know is I've got to force myself to start going to the gym again and lifting weights. As for rugby league the focus will just be on scoring tries and hopefully winning a premiership this year with the Bulldogs. Think less do more...
You're not alone mate. I think a lot of us go through these times where we question what we're really doing and why. I ask myself on a daily basis why I'm not just another gym bro. Things would be so much easier. I'd think about training less and probably get much better results too. Also, you need to cut yourself some slack. How old is your son now? My life basically got put on hold in 2009 when my son was born.
As for motivation I think it just comes and goes unless you have momentum or a group to train with. Like you said, rugby is keeping you involved so at the least you know that side is covered. You'll get back into the gym eventually. I've been on and off since late Feb but bit the bullet this morning and got up at 4.45 to go to a new gym. Motivation is back but it took a good 4 months.
*Edit- I also question why I'm doing what I'm doing regularly but get sharp reminders every now and then. Had one on the weekend watching my 7 year old son do gymnastics and doing handstands, chin ups, push ups, flips, etc. Makes me want to be better than, or at least be able to keep up with him.
Waking up at 4:45 is commitment!!!
Rugby league wise my motivation is now to win the Premiership with the Bulldogs. The Bulldogs were founded in 1976 and have won 8 1st Grade Premierships- - 1978, 1980, 1983, 1994, 1997, 2001, 2008, 2016. This season we will be aiming to be the first team in Bulldogs history to go back to back.
Gym wise I'm just going to slowly start working up with moderate weights/volume starting from Monday.