I don't know what's going on but there are serious issues here. THis is going to be a long post but I am really trying to help all parties, and I've worked hard on my inner self and it has really paid off, daily interactions just improves, life just improves, suffering decreases.
SO:
It's okay for men to cry. I learned this recently at ultimatemenssummit.com, where these older men are promoting the idea that being stern and unemotional was the old-school concept of masculinity. It's okay to harbor grief, and can be quite therapeutic with a circle of men.
However, we all need to be one with that inner light, that inner confidence, the third chakra (solar plexus) that deals with self-confidence issues. A lot of us, due to lack of self confidence have a front in this world. I mean most of us don't use our real names on this forum, and we bash others under this veil.
Once we remove all layers, nothing can harm us really, because we know who we are - sure we are material beings, we live via our senses, and are concerned, perhaps too much with what others think about us, and that material stuff is important, but harboring a stronger less material sense of confidence is going to help everyone. Even I have shit to be unconfident about. I have gyno, but now I live with it, and people love me.
Meditation will solve all these problems. It will slow you down, and you will be like "why so serious? . . ahhhh." It's not some new age shit. It's just exercise for the brain, it reduces emotional swings (if you want that reference PM, cuz I can't find it right now and it's too late), so helps provide us with that sense of self. Adarq's a celeb, celebs get this shit all the time where they feel like people hate them, whether its beiber, some forum guy, or paris hilton.
However, if people hate you, you are hating something as well. It's reciprocal. And adarq has a lot of hate in his videos, even though it's for entertainment. You put out nasty, you get nasty back. Karma, newton's laws, doesn't matter. Now although adarq acts cray in his videos, I'm surprised sometimes because he acts really nice in most of his posts, at least on this forum, with smileys, lmaos and such. It's difficult to articulate all this, but the most important concept is... meditate and you'll find answers. Meditation WILL make you wiser